I have the will of a Dorset sheep

Thanks, Alvin, for the illustration last night as we talked and then talked with God. God is the great Shepherd, while we are His sheep. While many people think of sheep as cute, cuddly animals, I have learned otherwise in my life. Thanks, mother, for making me raise those animals long ago, because now those Biblical illustrations come out that much more. Sheep are stupid. They can't live alone. If there's just one around, they'll panic themselves to death. The more apt here (while the first one applies, this one is much stronger) is about their provision. The shepherd puts them in a field of green grass, yet they always see something beyond their reach that looks better. They will go beyond the protection of said shepherd to get at that better looking field.

That's me right now. I, for the second time, have had this opportunity present itself, and my ego keeps thinking, "that's not good enough. That's not what you want to do. You don't need a Masters. You just need to get paid." While that's all well and good, it doesn't seem to be where I'm being led. This is the door that has been opened twice. I have a friend that would come and beat me down if I turned this down again. Yet my ego keeps wanting to go find full-time work.

I truly thank God for giving me this peace. Because after I talked to my parents yesterday, I thought I was surely going to turn this down. They told me I was frantic, and they were right. There was no pressure, but I kept thinking there was. My stomach, already screwed up beyond recognition, was in even more knots than usual. But I kept asking for peace, and I believe it came. I went driving last night, got a Key Lime Blizzard (so good!) and drove around downtown for the first time ever here (Yea, yea, I know, been here a year and never did it. Well, now I have, and I'll do it again before I leave). I didn't really have time to think about it as I was trying not to get lost! It did clear my mind. Singing with TBA was good as well, keeping things away from my mind. And then talking to Alvin, such a great brother in the faith, just really brought things to light.

Oh Lord, please continue to let the peace stay with me. Always stay near and continue to draw myself to You.